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4/05/2010..
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semalam adalah hari yang teruk...semoga hari ini lebih baik dari semalam..

malam ini akan pergi celebrate kawan misz C--> cik siti yang akan tamat kontrak mengajar nya minggu ini...huhu gudluck my dear..

carrymark student dah siap..ingatkan dah free sikit diz week..tiba-tiba gerakkerja program usahawan muda fasa 1, 2 dan 3 dah bermula...and i was appointed to be the responsible comittee for invitation of participants & motivator, protocols and so forth...God whutta hell was dat?? ive never done any before..hushhh

malas nak fikir...yang penting 6-9 may..im off to my hometown..missed mum & dad..tapi sure i will put on weight bila balik kampung kan?? haha

cakap pasal berat...teringat pasal mR5..he did texting me diz few days..and asking me about our 'dealing'...hmm...tak menarik la...dah tak teruja macam dulu....misz C hampir-hampir nak giv up da sebab masa dah semakin hampir...tapi harus cepat sedar bahawa misz C nak jadi peragawati sambilan..maka harus teruskan usaha...up to you la mR 5...saya berjaya atau tak memang kena pergi pun candle lite dinner dengan awak kan..hmmmmm

mRD is hectic and fatigue..dats all i knew from his social network profile (FB)..kami dah jarang berhubung juga...i dun wanna disturb him..but sincerely he is now my priority..tapi bila misz C dah bagi peluang untuk dia..dia semakin jauh pula..

malam semalam mR5 mesej lagi misz C..he said he was having fever..and we talked on the phone buat pertama kali selepas beberapa bulan tak bercakap dlm fon(bulan ke? hyperbola la awak ni misz C)...poor him...he got hard cough and flu..so tak dapat cakap lama coz dia pun tak selesa..click! phone off..zero minded...saya tak tahu apa perasaan saya sekarang...

im confused..im not a playgirl...never crossed in my head..
tapi misz C tak faham dengan lelaki...bila kita da buka pintu hati kita dia lari..tapi bila hati kita dah tertutup..dia datang pula...tak faham...

since then...i think im not that desperate enough yet to have a boyfriend.. but sometimes i cant deny it, sense of belonging and belongs to someone, loving and beloved...saya juga manusia biasa...orang mesti tak percaya bila jumpa saya dan saya kata saya tiada boyfren lagi...kenapa?? tak percaya?? ayat memujuk mereka--->takpela muda lagi kn...huhu no komen...but for me this is my fate...cinta tak maw lekat dengan misz C since 2007..ok fine..

my aunt goin to get married by end of this year finally after 7 years 'in a relationship' (woww lame tu)...next is my turn...ala rilek sudahh..hahaha serammmm...taknak ahhh kawin express cam kawan misz C...berkenalan tak sampai sebulan (awal bulan 5) terus bertunang minggu lepas and diz june is goin to get married..wahh tertekannn...seriauuuuu...huuu

so masa yang masih ada ni..lebih baik misz C enjoyyyyyy...yeayyyy...da sampai limit umur wajib kawin if tak de gak bf...wat muka seposen je la cakap kt abah...takde bf..owhhhh tidakkkk...perlu ke jadi watak dalam novel..kawin terpaksa??

this is reality ok..hope not...nahhhhh..dats not goin to happen to misz C..insyaAllah...

countdown : 27 hari lagi

whut?!~~